I feel so alone. I am scared, and I do not know what to do. So many decisions to make that will influence my life forever. In the conflict world this would be called Avoidance-Avoidance Conflict. I have two options to choose from and they both SUCK! It is difficult to focus on the positive things in life when you feel like there is an overstuffed black cloud following you around all day. Where is the Sunshine?? I keep looking up hoping to see a sliver of it peering through the bleakness that surrounds me. The funny thing is no one will know I am feeling like this...well except the few that will read this blog. I have a group meeting in about fifteen minutes. I will dry my tears, put a smile on my face, and no one will be the wiser that I am falling apart on the inside. Thank God I have God! If I did not know that He will give me the strength to get through these emo feelings I do not think I would be able to walk out the door with a positive attitude. I know there is hope for tomorrow, and I know I will survive. I will not let THIS define me. I will not let THIS ruin my day! I guess sometimes you have to be the Sunshine in your own life...
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