Control Freak

Do you ever just get tired of having to control things you have no control over? This thought may be a bit of a brain twister for you, but I'll explain.

In my situation, I have no control over the fact I have Crohn's Disease. The fact that I have Crohn's Disease forces me to control my lifestyle or suffer the consequences. This lifestyle means not enjoying favorite cuisine, going to bed before my grandpa, not hanging out in bars, not eating out that often, and basically planning my outings around my BM schedule.

So this doesn't sound so bad. For the most part, it's not. It is just sometimes I feel so confined! I just want to be irresponsible. Lose control. I want to eat a piece of cake or have a hot dog and beer. These little things most people take for granted or don't even think about are things I rarely or never get to do. Boo hoo poor me right. Get over myself. Don't worry I will right after I post this.

Today the Lord blesses you and me with three verses:

John 16:33 ESV / 73 helpful votes

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

Matthew 11:28-29 ESV / 51 helpful votes

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Revelation 21:4 ESV / 29 helpful votes

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

The Best Things in Life

Apparently, my readers have missed my blogging. So here I am writing again. I know it has been a while so I will fill you in on a few of my most recent blessings.

The love of my life and I are engaged!! We are planning for an April wedding next year. Not only have I been blessed with a wonderful man, I have also recently battled against my body to complete the Indianapolis OneAmerica Mini Marathon. My friend and I were able to complete it in 3 hours!! Training was a difficult journey and this was a big accomplishment for the both of us. Those are the two main blessings I have to share, but the Lord continues to bless me daily with multiple little blessings.

Since my last message I have decided to have surgery. Only two more months left until my life will be changed forever...unless...

Ok so here's the thing, I recently was told about this book called "Breaking the Vicious Cycle: Intestinal Health through Diet." Many readers of this book report that they are free from symptoms of Crohn's and are off their medications. This diet is very strict and will be very difficult. I know if I can survive flare ups and minis marathons, that I can be disciplined enough to try this diet out at least for two months. If it can help me enough to get on a lower dosage of steroids before August, then maybe, just maybe, I can avoid or at least post pone having surgery. This book has given me new hope of a more normal tomorrow. It will mean a lifestyle change for me and my future husband, but I know we are strong enough to make it through this challenge as well. I will lean on the strength of the Lord and the knowledge he has plans for my prosperity. I had thought I was ready to give up the fight, but maybe there is something still worth fighting for. The most difficult challenges we go through in life, often turn out to be the best things for us.

I will keep you posted on my journey these next two months.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.